Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Lost Joy

This was written a long time ago after a miscarriage. I can't tell you how emotionally painful it is to lose a baby. It's something you never get over.




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What was our joy that day?
Why were we so happy,
Can you remember?
It’s hard
To think our hearts
Could have been so full,
And now it seems every bit of happiness
Is gone.
I’m so tired
Of feigning a tranquility
I really can’t feel
Just to keep away
The sad-eyed people
Who come to offer comfort
When they have no idea
Why.

Just let me be alone
To cry.



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7 comments:

my said...

Everyone has undergone unhappy things,but the strangest and truest result is that the sorrowful man likes to cry alone.Then the feeling is more than before in the world.

my said...

Additionally,I'm very sorry to know this.

Lynilu said...

My - Yes, we all need that opportunity to be alone with our feelings at times. Never completely alone for a long time, but alone to grieve.

Thank your for your compassion.

my said...

In fact,I always think the grief is a emotion,and just like happiness.No sadness no happiness.I think the sentence is sagacious:Time and think tame the strong grief.Experiencing great grief,getting great pleasure.
I believe you have a beautiful life.

Lynilu said...

I agree with you. A person can't experience real joy unless that person knows the opposite, sadness or grief. And the reverse is true also . . . Unless someone has been happy, can he know when he is sad? All emotions are necessary and it is our task to learn how to balance them. That is what life is, experiencing emotions.

Jenn said...

Lynilu - I have no idea what took me so long to click on this link.

I've gone through one too. Your words are so true.

Lynilu said...

Jenn - I'd say you didn't come here before this because it wasn't the right time. Everything has purpose, you know. This experience is something that a person can not understand without having experienced it, I believe. I think those of us who have can express it and others may feel the sadness and the grief, but they never understand completely. It has been 40 years, and it still hurts. I know it must for you, too. It just never goes away.